I went to college for several years. I had a small student loan, we had. We both signed for it. It came to a total of less than four thousand for a number of years. ( I later paid it back , two payments a month for many years living in a shack. w.o. running water, flushing toilette for years, etc. minim wage and slightly above.) I was nearing the end of college. We were up against it. I had done without most everything personal. (underwear, no new clothes for a couple of years, only cheap haircuts because they wanted short hair.)
I did not want to borrow. I planned to work and pay this back. We had
big plans, I thought. I was going to work in that field, not go back into something else, and had no intentions of skipping out on anything.
I had two prized possessions. I also had an expensive couch which we paid cash for. The possessions were my china cabinet and a piano.
The piano was my prized possession. I had a piano once before. They called it an old upright. It was huge, tall, heavy. I stripped, refinished it. It was beautiful. Had keys replaced, warmer in it. It sounded really good. Took about six men to get it into the house. Husband said if we moved, it stayed. He was not moving it again. We sold our home. Moved. We bought another piano, a new but not real expensive one, so they could deliver it. I kept this piano
polished and treasured it. We all played on the piano .
Well. I sold my piano and cabinet. I was very sad. I actually grieved over both, but I cried over the piano. I had to have money, I was so close to graduating and after all that hard work, I was not quitting. I studied long and hard hours, compensaing for not getting to study as much as I wanted in hs. There was so much to learn that was so interesting, not just my field.
Anyway, I sold it. Not too long after that, our plans went to oblivion.
I learned my credit, my charge cards, or ours, was terminated. I had not used one forever. I had no clothes to speak of to job hunt, hardly any underwear,
two horrible uniforms, and we were behind on the house payment.
Anyway. It was not worth it. I wish I had kept the piano. Our kids were scapegoated of course. We did not get to do anything we wanted to do.
I lost my career I worked so hard for. Never really had a fair chance to work, only someone trying to make i look like I had delusions of grandeur about my skills …which I absolutely did not have. Lost my husband of 20 years. Movedall over after my dtr graduated from hs. Forced to sit there until she did, and then I left. I was not allowed to work any where, forced to return to
where a relative was, and to go back into the field I did not want to go back into and knew was a lost cause. I did not want to work for the state.
My entire reason for going to college was: Husband could have a chance to attend if he wanted, or go part time or find another job. Kids could go to college, I could work and help them through. Then I could get my BSN and work part time. We could retire early. It all went to heck in a handbasket
because some people had ideas about getting money off us which did not include our working. I found I was barred from working in one hospital because I almost died there. Someone got the money from that, we did not, and I was not popular or wanted there. That was the hospital I wanted to work in, new, modern. Desperately needed good nurses there.
I said “were terminated”. I edited this, corrected it. They said it was too long. Then it took the unedited, long one. Isn’t that strange & did not save my edits.
Then it would not let me go back in and
correct. Is this a scholastic competition?
I am not competing in here. What is tis?
Is this someone stalking me, using this site to say I cannot write , or could not have in my apt. using this site for their personal advancement?
Now, I am upset. Look at that. What is going on here. They also delete innocuous questions such as the one about senior citizens and vegetarianism. They deleted a question , VIP, for senior citizens regarding calcium & Vitamin D: implications, contraindications, complications, interactions. What is this? Someone is posting questions in here aimed at me personally, to intimidate me. Going to the site does not help. This happens in every website I go to, even trivia. Don’t want me using the pc. Just like college when I couldnot get work after, like music. Alll going to the men.
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